PTSD Recovery Expedition Day 8 – Freedom
When Meathead and I started flipping this tire there was no such thing as Facebook, Instagram, Websites, Linkedin, Cell phones, text messages nothing of the sort.
My #1 toughest challenge in this life these past 5 years has not been trying to eat, flipping this tire up and over mountains, glaciers, ski hills, across the country or around the world.
The toughest, most challenging thing for me is this little plastic weapon of mass destruction.
Flipping the tire , shackled in chains in the worst possible conditions is the easy part, small steps, breathe, and do it over again and again until the battle that day is over.
Imagine if a Roman Gladiator had to come back from the coliseum after hours upon hours of battling for his life , and then spend the next 8 hours trying to get the video edited, pictures up and write about this experience to try and inspire others through thoughts on a piece of plastic on a device that just keeps sucking the life and breath out of him , with each and every moment feels like your being re programmed and hypnotized by the electronic master.
Today, is the first day in over 5 years we can finally be free of this device and take its grasp off our throats and be totally disconnected from the utter insanity.
There’s been nothing more confusing, and i’ve never struggled so much in my entire life than to be surviving in the real world one minute, a world where nothing has changed since the beginning of time and then sit down in front of this device and try and wrap my head around the fact that all humans have unknowingly been tricked into and stuck in this Web somehow convinced that it’s a good thing for us.
The language we speak and how it’s all perceived is beyond me, constantly trying to navigate my way through the gauntlet, watch my vocabulary, dodge the al·go·rithm’s, keep it positive, hashtags, enough data, storage, connection, uploads, downloads, emails, updates, install now, and and and and’s is just not human period.
Ask a heroin addict to put down their dope for 7 days and they would more than likely take your head off and sell it for another point.
Ask any human to put their master down for 7 days and there ya have it.
How we have all put our lives, trust, faith and our over all well being into a piece of plastic is beyond me, we’ve fed the beast to which will consume us.
We continue to give this device to our next generation ( younger and younger ) without the understanding of it’s true power and control over the human mind, which in turn spells big trouble for the future of humanity.
What will become of our grandkids, and the generations to follow if already today, in 2020 humans are unable to function without the leash around our necks ?
Today for me, is a day I feel most free , finally 5 years later I can step far far away from the plastic master, and re connect myself, my soul, my every breath 100 % to my environment without having to get sucked into a internet connection to try and share my experiences with “the people”.
Please don’t get me wrong, it’s just extremely difficult for me to watch the world crumble around us today being forced into zoom calls, social media , texts etc – it just goes against everything we are trying to promote. It goes against what we do here , so I feel very hypocritical by entering this electronic world of humans to try and share natural experiences .. it just does not make any sense what so ever to do it this way, but left with no other options, we will continue to grind away knowing that by connecting to consciousness , with each leaf, tree, bug, berry, bird and bear the universe understands our goals and intentions which continues to pave the way to everything we are trying to do to help “the people”.
There is no need to rant on and on about what has become of us cause at the end of the day for most all humans it’s far beyond the breaking point and complete collapse of humanity, we just don’t see it or understand it , nor will our generation be around long enough to see what we have done to the earth and to our gift of life as a human being. Its kinda like .. when plastic containers, and microwaves came out. Everyone jumped atthe ease, and convenience of it all, not even caring or understanding what kind of impact we have done or would do to our earth, our oceans, the animals and our own digestive systems. If we think about the 37 billion dollars a year in mental health care , has anyone considered the fact that all the plastic and radiation that surrounds us each second is the contributing factor ?
I could share 10 000 pictures and 100 hours of videos and write 10 million word blogs and not one picture, nor a word typed, not even 1000 hash tags over the coarse of 20 years at this rate will ever change anything.
I’m merely speaking from a different level of consciousness from outside the box looking in.
This is just my observation, writing not in hopes to change anything or upset anyone, but rather knowing that when I click “post” each letter I type is going to be read as a data upload to the digital system and one day many many years from now whatever being we have evolved into will see where humanity parted ways.
My mind is exhausted as I think about how much pain and suffering our next generations will have to endure due to our ignorance, selfishness and need for more.
It is up to us as people today, to leave behind a legacy for those humans in the future to enjoy our freedom, nature, all the bugs and animals that sing in her forest, the feeling one experiences when we just look at leaf or wake up to bear looking at you , even so much as just watching snow melt, or the feeling of strength and control , power and determination you get just from building a shelter, fetching water, flipping a tire, whatever it is .. is to be experienced without this device – our demise.
Today, I sadly have to sit here and upload these writings, for who I dunno, why I dunno, something in my gut says that all these years experiences all the ups and downs has not been for nothing and has to be shared to try and inspire those who do struggle with emotional, physical and psychological health challenges.
My – Self – Included .. you see what I just said, I somehow “think” it has to be shared, my own insanity thinking that anything I do or say on this device will have any sort of impact on anything.
What matters most, is the actions we make , to helping plant the seeds in our next generations hearts of what is possible and what is out here still .
Without the passed down knowledge, wisdom and human experience .. it will have all been for nothing if we don’t act now.
Thats my 2 cents today, as I sit here still completely baffled how even knowing what kind of power and control this device has on “us” , I still sit here like a madman convinced that someone out there understands what we are trying to do for “the people” of the future.
Freedom from this device now for at least the next 7 – 10 days … time for us to enjoy the adventure and challenges that lay ahead by applying the same tools to our own lives a daily routine w
Your Friend, Our Voice
Terrance J. Kosikar