. . .

Please welcome Terrance Joseph Kosikar to the BC Legislature

Member of the Legisltive Assembly – Shane Simpson welcomes Terrance Joseph Kosikar to the BC Legislature.


POWER OF THOUGHT – “Please welcome, Terrance to the Legislature”

One hour after the Vancouver 2010 Winter Olympics was over, most of Canada was cheering, and celebrating.

Unable to bare the overwhelming amount of guilt, shame, and the unforgiving feelings of depression and anxiety that had built up every time I heard a cow bell dinging, or saw a yet another happy face walk by as they cheered, I had left the track that night and chose to die by suicide..

4 days later, I sat in my doctors office, wondering why in the hell I had spent so many years risking my life to respond to the public’s Emergencies, and out of nowhere, here I was trying to die by suicide?

My doctor says to me, “ I think you may have PTSD”. This was the first time I had ever heard of Post Traumatic Stress Disorder.

He then referred me to a physciatrist for a professional diagnosis.

Problem was, the shrink only came to Whistler once every 3 months. So in the meantime, I was handed a few perscriptions to try and prevent me from trying to end my life again.

By the time shrinky poo came to town, 3 months later, do you think I wanted to say anything to this woman?

I didn’t know her, I didn’t trust her, I didnt believe in her, I was so heavily medicated, believe me, she was the last person on earth I was about to tell my homicidal thoughts or my suicidal feelings to.

The last thing I wanted was to be sentenced or diagnosed with a “DISORDER”.

It’s bad enough that my father spent his entire life housed in an institute for the criminally insane, Its certainly not where I wanted to end up also.

I tried to be the tough guy, and mask my feelings, hide my true thoughts, and avoid putting all my nightmares on the table in fear of her having me committed to a nut house for the rest of my life.


1 year later, I found myself checking into the Vancouver Detox Center, after being fired from my job at Whistler Sport Legaices for “not acting the same since the Olympics”, and for abusing the drugs (meds) that the doctors had me jacked up on that entire year to, “numb the pain, the feelings, the thoughts”.

I hadn’t eaten anything over those Christmas holidays, and had been violently puking blood uncontrollably before checking into detox that New Years day.

I was advised by the bosses at Sport Legacies (as they were firing me) to make a claim with WCB, for a workplace injury.

They had told me that PTSD is a workplace injury and that they would take good care of me the same as they took care of a few other employees that had been working during the games who also filed for PTSD .

At this point, I still had no idea what PTSD was, nor did I feel it was an injury. I assumed like most people do, that an injury is obvious. I mean I had been a First Responder for over 7 years, and never have I ever heard of this sort of injury, or it’s signs, or symptoms, nor how to respond to it, or treat it.

After years of jumping through the BS hogwash hoops like a circus monkey, with the loss of my careers, my livelyhood, the loss of my friends and family, on top of being dragged through a system that looks great proceedurly on paper but in real life is the most crooked, smoke and mirror show I have ever seen. Along wth many attempts at ending my life, self drugged and heavily medicated until I lost everything and ended up not even knowing who I was or why I was …

27 Chapters later …

Just last year, during our Breaking the Chains BC – PTSD Awareness program, I had opened up my Worksafe BC Occupational First Aid Level 3 book, and flipped through over 500 pages and couldn’t find ONE SINGLE SECTION, page or even the word PTSD in it.

Just so happened only a few days later, I was doing a radio interview on 101.5 Whistler FM, when the lady interviewing me mentioned how only days earlier a man named Shane Simpson MLA – Vancouver Hastings had just tabled Bill M203, Presumption of Illness, an amendment to the 2016 Workers Compensation Act .

(those were actually pretty big words for a guy like me, and really had no idea what any of it really meant.)

I had the next 27km of flipping my tire over 7 mountains to think about this man, and how amazing it would be to one day meet him.

I wanted more than anything in the world to just have 5 minutes of his time, to let him know first hand just how vital it is to all Emergency Service Providers that this Bill he had introduced gets passed.

With each flip of my tire, I would always lower my head though, knowing I am really just a nobody, just a ol washed up First Responder who lost his job, lost his family, I had no money, no pull, no status, still eating food bank donations, and I didn’t even own a cell phone.

Pffft, as if a guy like him, a politician, a Member of the Legislative Assembly would ever in a million years EVER, even have 1 second to look down at me, let alone – know I even existed on this earth.

I used to day dream over and over that one day, maybe just one day, I would be somebody, somebody special enough to get to cross paths with this man and or his team.

With these days dreams in mind, these postive goals and dreams put out to the universe each day, with each meditation. I had received an email from a man named Jim McCallistar, Director or British Columbia Search and Rescue who wanted to meet us to help flip our tire while in Victoria.

While talking with Jim outside the Legislature Building, Shane Simpson came outside to invite myself and our teammates into the house gallery the next day to have the honour to watch and listen in person while Shane introduced Bill M 203 into Legislation.

After going through some pretty serious security, we sat in the gallery, looking down at the entire BC NDP – over 40 members.

I can tell you now, this was by far the absolute coolest, most badass experience I had ever lived through. After all the years of many struggles, here I was, INSIDE a room where history is made. Where government makes decisions that structures how us, the people live or die for.

This all seemed like a crazy dream, one I have certainly never had before, never in my wildest day dreams, but this was about to get alot more real than I had ever imagined.

The Honourable Speaker, Ms Linda Reid, says the words “ Vancouver Hastings”

I then saw Shane stand up and my gut got all fuzzy inside, I was about to witness him introduce Bill M203, The Presumption of Illness, a Bill that our team had slaved 20 hrs a day, 7 days a week for over a year to bring more public awareness to with our tire flipping programs and online petition.

My teeth were clinched tight, my paws were even shaking a little bit as the fur on my arms started to stand up with excitment.

YES, this is really happening.

The next thing ya know, Shane says “ Thank you Honourable Speaker, Honourable Speaker, I’d like to introduce Terrance Kosikar who’s here with his colleagues.

My jaw about hit the floor, Shane went on to talk about who I was, and the work we do this last year to raise awareness to post Traumatic Stress.

When he was done talking he didn’t even introduce the Bill yet, but asked the entire house to Welcome me, a small fish backcountry farmer, TO THE LEGISLATURE .

All 40 members of the BC NDP, and all members of the Liberal Government smiled as they looked up into the gallery at us, and clapped.

This is by far the greatest, most special moment of my entire life – I stood up, in total shock, bowed humbly, sat back down and enjoy every single tear that rolled down my face onto my lap.

Please join our – Its Not Weak To Speak “Page” , as we will be posting the rest of our PTS tour on this page rather than our personal page.


#BELLETSTALK#bellletstalk#breakingthechains#breakingthechainsbc#ITSNOTWEAKTOSPEAK132010 olympics2010 winter olympics2018 winter olympics202020212021 camp2021 Ride to Recovery21221524 kms 24 hrs55 ultra7th heavenA Dollar A day FoundationAdara Hotel WhistleraddictionAddiction RecoveryadventureAdvocatealpine glowanti bullyanti bullyinganti virusantivirusAnxietyanxiety helpatvaustraliaAwarenessaxeback to workbc ndpbc search and rescueBCSARbe kindbe safebe wellbike life vancouverbikersbikers against bullyingbreaking the chainsBreaking the Chains BCbritish columbiabull dog boot campburnaby lakecamocampCamp FireCamp My Waycamp outCamp set upcampingcanadaCanada Day 2021canadian walk for veteransCanadian well beingCanadian well-being foundationcanoecanoeingcanoingCDFChad Kennedychainschaos group canadacodeCommunityconqureconvictcorrections officerscovid19covid2020CTVctv newscwbfdarren mcpeakedavid buzzarddavid buzzard photographydepressiondepression helpdepression reliefDon Shafereducationehseldersemotionalemtend the stigmaenemyEnglish Bayenvironmentescape routeescape route whistlerevery child mattersexcerciseexerciseexpeditionexperienceexplorationFacebookfamilyfamily dayfire chiefFire Fightersfire rescuefirefighterfirefightersfirst nationsFirst Responderfirst respondersfishingfitnessfkcovidfood bankforest fireforgivefoundationfreedomfundraiserGarmingeorgiagermanyglobal newsgoalgraditudegratefulgratitudehealHeal naturalhealinghealshealth carehelphigh risk youthhikinghistorialhistoryhonda crv 2020honourhumanhuman experiencehumanityinspirationinspireInstagraminstinctual reaction to dangerinternational ptsd awarenessipairdITS NOT WEAK TO SPEAKJack Poole PlazaJill brownJillian A Brownjillian a brown photographyjoern rohdejoern rohde photograpghyJordan Daviesjosee querryJosh Vander Viesjournel entry day 3just breathekal tirekyacklakelakeslarry falconlaw enforcementlegacylet the games beginLinkedinloyalitylugeMagic JohnsonMaple Ridge Wilderness Programmarathonmarchmark kennedymarriottMECmediattionmeditationmemorialmental healthMental Health awarenessmental health initiativemental health recoverymentorMilitary Mindsmind fitMind setmindfulMission Mountainmotivationmotorcyclemountain fmMountainFmMountainsmustang survivalNational Police Forcenatrualnaturalnatural recoverynaturenature healsneed helpNesters Market WhistlerNesters Whistlerno cell phonesno medsno xcusesnodar kumaritashvilinon profitnot all wounds are visiblenursenutritionOff duty sickoff gridolympic cauldronsolympicsoperational stress iniuryoperational stress injuryopportunityopus athleticsOSIpaddleboardingpaddleingpan pacificparamedicspaul eastonpeacepeer supportpig roastpique news magazinepoker runpolicepolice officerspolice testimonialpositivepost trauma recoverypost traumatic stresspower of positive thinkingpresidentpresumtion of illnesspreventionprisonproud police officerPTSDptsd awarenessptsd recoveryptsd recovery camp my way suicide preventionptsd recovery expedition 2020ptsdrecoveryPTSiput in the workradiorally point retreatrcmpreconnectrecoveryrecovery expedtionrecovery is possiblerelaxrespectride to recovery 2021Robson SquareRoundhouse RadioroutinerunningRyan TobinsafeSARscandinave spaScott Caseysecondary schoolself careselflessserviceshane simpsonsheepdog lodgeshelterSheriffsikh motorcycle clubslccsleepsocial justicespiritualSquamish Chiefsquamish lil'wat cultural centreStanley ParkstigmaStressstress reliefstressfreestrugglingSuicide preventionsuicidepreventionsummit lodge ski boutiquesun setSunset Beachsupportsurrey firesurrey fire fighters charitable societysurrey firefighterssurrey firefighters charitable societysurrey hondasurvivalTentTerrance Joseph KosikarTerrance KosikarTerrance Kosikar FounderterrortestimonialThe Ambassador of Georgia H.E. Konstantin Kavtaradzethe rolling barragethe surrey firefighters charitable societyTheGlobeandMailtire fliptire flipingTire flippingtire mountain teamtire'd of the stigmatired of the stigma 2020Together We CampTogether We Cantrauma recoveryTrev DeeleyTrev Deeley Motorcyclestrue healthcare is selfcaretruthTWCusaVancouvervancouver bcVancouver fireVancouverSunveteransVictoriaVictoria Buzzvsslwaterwaterfallswell beingwellbeingWhistlerwhistler atvWhistler Blackcombwildernesswilderness survivalwilderness therapyWinter Campingwisdomwounded warriors canada]young offenders boot campyouth campyouth programs